Something I found on
Quora (try it: you'll love it) which made me think I might be on the right track!
'Weep and you weep alone! - What a lie this is! Weep and you will find a million crocodiles to weep with you. The world is forever weeping. The world is drenched in tears... But joy, joy is a kind of ecstatic bleeding, a disgraceful sort of contentment which overflows from every pore of your being. You can't make people joyous by being joyous yourself. Joy has to be generated by oneself: it is or it isn't. Joy is founded on something too profound to be understood or communicated.
To be joyous is to be a madman in a world of sad ghosts.'
-Henry Miller